Backlog #4

August,13th 2008
Ok, I think I've FINALLY figured it out. As much as I hate to admit it, the author of "He's Just Not That Into You", has a fucking point. Side note: I don't hate to admit that because I'm some sort of delusional woman. I just think that guy's a douchebag.

Anyway...
There is two sides to every 'game'. In the past 6 weeks, I've been on both sides of this 'game'. The interaction between one interested party and his/her prey takes only two forms. Everything in between is bullshit. The bullshit is perceived as a necessary evil, but once you can recognize it, it is just annoying. Invariably, there is one party more interested than the other. This is just the way life works. Sometimes you are the alpha dog and sometimes you're the whiny little bitch in the corner. Such is the way of the world. However, this is not my point. My point is, once you've been both, you can recognize the characteristics of either party.

You don't have to make excuses to get out of seeing someone you really want to see. Equally, if someone is making excuses to get out of seeing you, you are not the person they would rather be spending time with. It is as simple as this: when you feel that fire, that chemistry, that only rarely comes with meeting someone you really like, there is nothing short of a house fire that will keep you away from that person. Similarly, when someone does not feel that, there is no short list of excuses to refuse the advances of the more enamored party. It's so simple. The chances of you both being equally into each other are so slim, it's no wonder I wander this city alone.

So, to all of those I was clingy to, I apologize. I liked you and I didn't get it. It won't happen again, I've learned my lesson. Not that I ever wanna see you again, that would be embarrassing, but you have helped all my future dates. And to all the people I bullshitted because you were more into me than I was into you, I'm sorry as well. I thought this game was necessary but from now on, I'm not going to waste the time. I either like you or I don't and vice versa, and since relationships never work out anyway, I am done wasting my time feeding or receiving bullshit. Ah... the freedom!

More the next time I learn something. Good night.