Looking Back......

October 8th, 2008

A Look Back

As I have been inspired by the fall season, and fellow bloggers, I am forced to take an introspective look at the past year. What has happened in the last 12 months?

FUCK! Let's see. I will start off by saying, this has been one of the hardest and most fun years of my entire life. The juxtaposition of total freedom and total loneliness is one that I will never forget.

I have shown more annual growth only twice in my life than I have in the past year. Once was my 7th year on this planet, when I learned about death, and the other being my 18th year when I moved away from home and discovered how to take care of myself and, more importantly, how to learn from my mistakes.

Being single, and lonely was a new feeling for me. I don't exaggerate how much it meant to me. I needed it so bad. It hurt SO bad but at times, but I wouldn't replace it for the world.
In my last year and whatever months of being alone, I have experienced varying degrees of relationships with:
- sadistic charmer that stole my heart and made me stupid
- scenester(s) with potential that never got beyond the sex
-one night stands that I had to get out of my system
- tryst with traveling rock star
-beautiful girl


and finally......
could it be?!
-a gorgeous, well-adjusted, normal person who seems to actually like me.


What a year.

But that's not all. I know this is primarily a relationship-based blog, but I must mention what else happened to me this year that's neither here nor there.

-I became an (great) aunt for the first time in my adult life (if you don't know, you better ask somebody)
-I learned how to Zumba.
-I got scared of living/working in my own neighborhood.
-I got a raise for the first time since high school.
-I had to deal with my mom possibly selling the house I grew up in.
- I made lots of gay friends! Finally! I love you 'mos!
-I got closer to a relative of mine, who I always wished talked to me more than he did.
-I learned a lot about my mom and my late dad's relationship.
-I heard my mom introduce me, proudly, at a fundraiser to her peers as "her daughter, the graphic designer", pink hair and all. ;) Love you, mommy.
-I'm going to get to vote in the most IMPORTANT election of my lifetime, and possibly in history.
-I made internet friends.
-I've had a standing Sunday brunch date with my entire building for almost a year.
-I've made new friends over Craft Days and photo shoots in the West Bottoms.



I'm sure there's more but isn't there always? Besides, it's only October.

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